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Today is the darn bloody hell in my life..first time ever I cried the whole journey I walked back from the Bangunan pentadbiran till the faculty ..i cant even control my tears..the worst thing is that the officer don’t even want to listen to my explanation..i know it’s all my fault but why the hell he don’t even give a damn to my problem..he only cares about all the vow thingy..said I’m a 4th year student and I must be matured enough to follow all the rules..wtf..even if I can follow the rules but he said I must do it within the 3rd or 4th week which that time I still have to negotiate to get my course.I burst into tears when I felt the scariness creeping from the bottom of my heart.i already go through all the thing to get one of the course in order to catch up my syllabus..but why all the fucking bad thing keep happen to me..i been through too much up & down and I don’t know how much further I can take.

When tears rolled down to my cheek..I really wish I can control them.i thought the tear will stop when I reach the class but who knows the the moment I sat down..damn..it just keep flowing.i feel so embarrassed.it’s been a while since the last time I cried as mad as this..i cant concentrate in the class and my mind seems to be implanted with that very moment when the officer reject me cruelly and I burst into tears.whenever I recall it ,my heart can still feel the pain and chillness which really makes me cry. Thus I cant even bear to stay in the class n choose to escape the rest of the class..i don’t wish my coursemates to see me in this condition which might just be another topic for them to gossip around..which I damn fucking hate it. Friends?!yeah..some of them definitely will be there for me..but what else can they do?i don’t wish to burden my friends with my problem and actually as the matter of fact,they cant do much also besides listen to my problem.Starting from this semester,7th July,countless problems already happened to me..but I still manage to act normal in front of my friends and able to tackle each of the problem..am I really laughing when I laugh?only me and god knows what I’m thinking all the time..my friends said I have the hilarious laughter..but frankly speaking when I was never been through so much obstacles in my life,I never ever laugh like that..which means my laughter can be so fake till my friends can even laugh at my laughter..

While I’m writing this out,there are still few other stuffs which burden me..guess it’s all up to my own to tackle all the bloody problems..what a d@mn fucking teary day for me!!